AIM IM with harmonygreen
thats exactly why i'm bored
what are your plans for the night?
i have 2 friends coming from different sides of the city
i live in the heart of atlanta
listening to the courtney solo album 'til i get my drinks
and i have a friend in the suburbs and a friend on southside
they're both being slow
the party starts in an hour, and is like 45 minutes away
mmm. that fails
haha i just talked to one of my friends
she's on her way
well, they better get their ass over there soon
her son hadn't gone to bed yet
but its cool cause he had a friend over
i'm gonna feel mighty old when that happens to me
how old r u?
god, my friends started having kids at 16
she's like my 10th friend to have a kid
well, she had zion before i met her
i'm only 22
i still don't know anyone with a kid
yeah, i went to a majority black hs
and a lot of people i knew were very very poor
but cara is cool
zion is even cooler
they look like rockstars, both of them
she's a bit older, 24/25
i used to have an image of them online
but i don't anymore
what kinda party u going to?
a disco one, i think
is it at a frat?
yeah, something random like that
or the like?
a gay person's dorm?
i think it might be...at a gay person's apartment
but if that's the case, we probably won't stay long
u should stay all night
nah, i don't do too well with my comrades...
never really have
unless they're bisexual
not many people dislike me
i tend to get alone with everyone
well, it's not dislike
it's just that i don't hit it off with them
nor do i pretend to
i don't understand
i think the way a lot of gay men act is inexcusable, even if it's just a reaction to all the repression they've had to manage
do u discriminate against more "gay" people than u are?
how do they act?
overtly sexual and misogynistic
what do u mean by misogynistic?
they think that they rule women?
before i make a sweeping generalization by saying "a lot of gay men"
i'll say this has been my experience
yeah, i understand
the majority of what i've met
i'm just trying to see where u are coming from
i know that u don't know the larger populations
well, more like...
but u can make generalized statements about the experiences u've had
women are just companions, just as faghags treat their gay friends like accessories, rather than people
don't feel embarrassed about that... its cool
man, thats a shame that thats your view of gay life
i'm sorry, that blows
well, i'm glad i don't have to explain myself more
most of the guys u know are young though, right?
mmm, no...i know some older men
like a teacher-friend of mine...
a friend of mine who's a teacher...was my fifth grade teacher...
he's gay and i don't view him like that at all
well thats good
i think a lot of conservative gay men as complete assholes
but honestly, other than him, there's probably a handful of people i know that aren't like i described before
yeah, i agree
ya, i understand completely
i have just stopped associating with people like that
so it is really confusing
yeah, i never did the clubs
i guess is the right way to put it
or anything ruthless like that
yeah, bars are much better
do u drink?
i want to go to some of the "good" gay bars in the city, but i don't have a fake id
i went to one and it was pretty nasty
just the behavior...
overcrowded, terrible music and a pinch on the ass from wandering hands as you pass by
too much of an age gap...
early twenty-somethings and then the middle-agers
u gotta be 21 to drink in a bar
in my book
and nyc, so it's a lot of black clothing and fancy accessories
oh, you mena...
about the older people?
what do u mean?
what are u asking about?
the "you have to be older than 21"
comment you made...
i don't like to see underage kids get fucked up
i'd rather they learn how to do that in a house
with other kids their age
its like a rite of passage, to drink at their place, or in their dorm
before they can really go to bars and be social
u gotta learn to hold your alcohol before i wanna talk to u
i talk to this hunter college student's who almost nineteen and he was telling me about his terrible gay bar experience
there's nothing sicker than watching an underage kid puke in a bar
lol, what's hunter college?
and how he got shit-faced, did pills in the bathroom, made out with an obscene amount of guys and didn't remember any of it
maybe kim was talking about it tonight
its in NYC
yep, it is
well, i've done what he did so many times
it's on 68th st., i believe
well, not usually tons of guys
usually with a new guy every time i did it
i've been drinking in bars since i was sixteen
i used to roll in this bar, ground zero, but they didn't serve alcohol
i'm still paranoid about going up the bar, but i know how to behave
roll? you were an e-tard?
i used to drink at mjq when i was 17
lol, yes, i guess i was an etard...
well, yeah,. definately i was, but i'm not anymore
lol, its been like 3 years since the last time i've rolled
yeah, that's when it was big
and it was few and far between the last while
i never tried it
umm, it is really nice, in the company of your own home
with someone u'd like to get to know emotionally
yeah, i just didn't like reading about it's effects...
or the pictures of the brain
::rolls his eyes::
that roll also do tons of other drugs
and don't eat right
and don't drink enough water
and stay up for days at a time
and smoke cigarettes
all of that has an effect on you
one single pill, is only gonna make u feel happy
as long as u don't get into it, hardcore, it won't fuck u up
yeah, but i have an addictive personality
e isn't addictive
i was already ashamed that i was so dependent on cigarettes...
g kinda is
it is fun to roll
and u get a group of friends that like it, and they all wanna roll together all the time
that is addicitive
and have depression, so i didn't want to get into something that was supposed to make me happy just by having some money on hand
but the drug itself isn't
yeah, e is pretty bad for people with depression issues
that becomes addicitive
that emotional release from depression
because it is counteracted, by depression the next day
it goes away
but u feel terrible the next day
yeah, i heard coming down from it was terrible
for everything that goes up, has gotta come down
naw, it isn't terrible
yeah, no thanks...
unless u use it to often
it is just stupid
and u don't understand why u are unhappy
it isn't anything like other drugs withdrawls
that is the fucking worst
coming off it is like, sitting in a dark alley after killing your mom, while running from the police
it is soooo serious